being dumped

it is really doesnt matter if i got dumped. as long as it is not my bestiee.
sometimes, i feel like unwanted when i called someone and she just not enthusiasm.
maybe, it's just my negative thinking. dunno. there are many things that fulfill my brain. dont want to think too far. but i can't handle it. some unimportant thing maybe, like how can't i stand by myself later, how is family of bestiiees think of me, did i bring negative effect for my bestieess, did i hold my bestiieess too tight, did my bestiees bored with me, did i use for her, and so many questions around my head.
i want to be like momo... always hearing and makes others happy without saying a word. just want to be an ears to another. momo makes people feel comfort. like i always want.