saving savingg

no eat outside too often, no buy cosmetics, no buy books, no buy cloths. let saving a lot of money this month. wanna buy something important hohhhooo...

my heart hurt...

...seeing you in this state, is it my false to make you feel that? maybe... sorry for everything happened. sorry that everything became like this. i never want to seeing you hurt. never.huuffhh i just realize now, that you still being my priority instead of him. he just no one compare with you. how can i go to your side? to always standing in front of you. do you know how much i care about you? is it late for me to go to your side now?
i just dont know why everything became like this. this just too far from my plan before. too far from my wish. and guess, i just feel alone now, that i'm different from you all. my heart so hurt. hhwwuuaaaaaaa...
i'm crying for everything happen to you, for everything happen to us.
why this must be like this??
i really begin loosing you, or you begin loosing me?hufffhhh
please, dont let we stay like this forever. i will never bear it. because it is you.
will we end up like this, after everything, every moment we spent together?afraid.