avril says........

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

ignored

i used to ignored by my friends. actually it really doesn't matter.
it doesn't matter if someone not really important ignoring me.
some old friends or ordinary friends.
but sometimes, it really hurt, no i mean it really totally makes me dissappointed maybe, when some persons do that to me.
sometimes, it's just give the sad effect , and makes me feel loneliness.

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if i get a chance to back to the past
will i take it?
no, i won't

about loneliness

sometimes i feel like no one besides me

they are who left

One by one, they left, until i stand here alone. Maybe it’s enough to have some closed people in our life. But sometimes I feel so lonely, that everyone who had closed to me, are left me behind. They walk. And they don’t ever turn back to look at me, that I still left behind. Maybe it’s my choice to always here and don’t go anywhere. There always something to keep up holding me here. Something precious that I decide to always hold it and never let it lost from my sight. I say sight not touch, because actually I never really hold it in my touch. Maybe sounds like, why I keep that so much if I can’t touch it. But I do need it, although I just can see it. Or maybe all that reason is just artificial reason pretending that I just left by them because of it. Actually I really don’t know why they left me behind and why I just still here. Or maybe I just let them to left me behind.

Sometimes I thought, how many people come and go in my life. I never counted it. But I’m sure that it was too many. That’s why I always afraid that someday I will have no one. Why I let them lost, I never know. Some case, they just lost from my sight for a moment and they never comeback again. And I never chased them and asked them to stay. Although they are my beloved. I will trying to keep them stay but finally I let them lost. And sometimes when I remembered them, I regret it to let them go easily. Another case, suddenly they left, and I just let them go, without any trying to chase them. It also makes me regret when I remembered them.

Looks like that I always regretting in my way of life. But believe me, having here now, will not makes me regret it someday. Because it’s a consequence of choosing. And actually it’s a gift that I must thanks to God. It’s not always happy here, but that’s life. I must face it wheter it full of happiness or not.

apa seeh

how's life

life sucks. tired of waiting.