One by one, they left, until i stand here alone. Maybe it’s enough to have some closed people in our life. But sometimes I feel so lonely, that everyone who had closed to me, are left me behind. They walk. And they don’t ever turn back to look at me, that I still left behind. Maybe it’s my choice to always here and don’t go anywhere. There always something to keep up holding me here. Something precious that I decide to always hold it and never let it lost from my sight. I say sight not touch, because actually I never really hold it in my touch. Maybe sounds like, why I keep that so much if I can’t touch it. But I do need it, although I just can see it. Or maybe all that reason is just artificial reason pretending that I just left by them because of it. Actually I really don’t know why they left me behind and why I just still here. Or maybe I just let them to left me behind.
Sometimes I thought, how many people come and go in my life. I never counted it. But I’m sure that it was too many. That’s why I always afraid that someday I will have no one. Why I let them lost, I never know. Some case, they just lost from my sight for a moment and they never comeback again. And I never chased them and asked them to stay. Although they are my beloved. I will trying to keep them stay but finally I let them lost. And sometimes when I remembered them, I regret it to let them go easily. Another case, suddenly they left, and I just let them go, without any trying to chase them. It also makes me regret when I remembered them.
Looks like that I always regretting in my way of life. But believe me, having here now, will not makes me regret it someday. Because it’s a consequence of choosing. And actually it’s a gift that I must thanks to God. It’s not always happy here, but that’s life. I must face it wheter it full of happiness or not.
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