mood booster

YYesterday was a happy day. You`re just always being my mood booster. Hsving you and him makes my life complrte. My precious. Wish i always hold both of you.

worry

I'm worrying you right now. I'm worry with the way you life, the way you think to face your future. Right now, is not time for giving. Because giving up is always not an option. I hope you will face all this matters bravely. Don't run. Although maybe it's easier to run. I believe you can pass this test. I try to support every decision you take. But sometimes I don't agree with what you think. And I will try to warn you. Just stay this way a bit longer. Maybe you will learn more that you will not get everywhere.

i'm back

Suddenly missing this blog. Realize that this recent months i just busy with my own thing and never look at this blog to write even once. So..let's having a late nite (or early morning) talk. Here i am today in my room. Trying to do simple things that maybe will change my life in future. For a better life. Let's talk about my bestie. Eemmmmm...my relationship with her is quite good now. Since that day we've meet, everything is better. We just doing regularly chat when we're feeling unwell. Or we do having a chat when we are not busy. Really good and feel so comfort. That's what i feel. Dunno about your feel. But still have a confidence about that.hehehe.
Sleepy...have to sleep now. I will try to write here more often. Because writing here is a bit makes me feel alive.

happy

I've meet you. Spend this whole day with you and the others. Veryyy happyyy. I always feel comfort beside you. Still and always be. Although our relationship in cyber world is not that good, but everything became okay when I'm with you again. Walk beside you. Doing things with you. At least that is what I feel now. That I feel very happy and enjoying this day. I'm not good in cyber world. I prefer to face you. Thank you for today to all my bestie. Just realize that the usual things we did in the past, is now feel so precious. Our time together. One of the happiest day in my life. Thank you thank you. Miss you all....love you

rendezvous

I'm going to meet you today. Hope everything is alright.I want to see you. Even at this point I want to see you. I miss you actually. Miss our time together.

alone

Merasa sangat sendirian. No one to talk no one to hear. Apa yang bisa mengakhiri perasaan seperti ini. Apa yang bisa membuatku tenang tanpa berpikir. Aku hidup tanpa tujuan tanpa arah. Tidak tahu harus kemana dengan siapa. Aku sudah hampir kehilangan semangatku. Semangatku untuk hidup dan berjuang. Hanya tersisa puing2 semangat yang harus kupunguti satu persatu. Dan ironisnya semua karena salahku sendiri. Aku yang menghancurkannya.
I want to cry but I don't have a shoulder to cry on.
I want to talk but I don't have an ears to hear.
I want to walk on but nothing wait for me at the end.
I'm alone.

regreting

Maaf krn ak tdk bisa ada di waktu2 sulitmu. Maaf karena ak tidak bisa keluar dari jalan ini. Maaf karena usahaku tidak cukup untuk bisa membuatmu kembali. Maaf karena ternyata aku tidak cukup baik untukmu. Maaf untuk semua yang telah hilang waktu yang telah pergi. Maaf karena bahkan ak tidak bisa melakukan pembelaan apapun atas diriku. Maaf karena keadaan menjadi seperti ini. Maaf karena ak tak mampu menggenggam tanganmu lagi. Maaf maaf maaf maaf. Seribu maaf pun tidak akan mampu membuatmu kembali. Seribu maaf pun tidak akan memperbaiki apapun.